PYAAR KE APNE RANG

 After 20 years when I came in the premises of that building which let the foundation of who I am. Slowly I entered the gates of my Amateur, a slight smile came on my face. No wonder twelve years in this place which had given me my best and worst moments of my life. 

As I was looking at the garden and trees planted near the building, my eyes fell on the board of

 X-B. The section which took my heart away obviously I was not in the same section. With a deep breath and sat down, felt the hot air on my cheecks. Though the weather was so hot but my heart was as cold as an ice. Slowly that ice started melting when I recalled the moments of the dream girl of my life. 

I said her my dream girl because she was my strength untill I completed my schooling, later both vanished in our own world's. But Lord had some other plans for me. He decided make my heart thromb again, after 3 years when all the students of batch 2012 were called for get-together. My eyes were searching her with the hope that she recognises me and atleast after so many years, I could ask her out. 

But alas! She came, she smiled and even recognised me but their was a guilt in her beautiful eyes. She had the charm in her face, amar chubby cheeks but her lips and eyes spoke different story of her heart. I was scared to ask her but observed very well that wherever she is, she is not as happy as she should be. 

This troubled me a lot, that stupid stubborn girl was not even using any social media, so I could hardly contact. After thinking about for many days, gradually her thoughts faded when I met a new girl in my life though it was virtual. 

I was seeing her in this virtual lady, although this could be my rebound, I took time and moved slowly with her. The best part about every is I was able forget my dream girl and genuinely happy in my life. It was my birthday when I received a call from the virtual lady of my life. The moment she spoke"Happy birthday", I fell down. I was in mixed emotions. She was my first love, my dream girl. I started blaming myself of being so stupid and such an idiot who could not even recognise her. What sort of love it is who cannot even recognise the person. She calmed me down and said," you are loyal towards your love thats why you ignored my messages and didn't initiate any wrong attributes with me". She was true about it. My love for her was above all the guilts and regrets. I spoke my heart out that day and expressed all my feelings to her which were burried inside me deep down since ages. She silently listened to me but deep down in her heart she was slowly whipping, thinking I will not realise. Little did she know that I could even sense sadness in her eyes over call. I let her cry untill she felt relieved. When she stopped I said " Thank you". 

Surprisingly she asked me the reason, her trembling voice pearsed my ears. At that very moment I wanted to hug her, she was miles away from me. 

Before she asks me again, I replied" I respect you a lot although I was mistaken by not recognising you that is because of the virtual world. The voice and your face can never fade away from my heart. And today you have left me speachless. Yes, I did try to fall in love with that virtual lady but it was very hard for me because I always protrayed you. Somehow your thoughts didn't bother me much after the virtual lady came. You are a person with a pure soul who is committed to her partnership. You could have winned in front of me about your husband, in-lwas and even your marriage but you chose to be quite and keep it in your heart. You burried your disturances for the responsibility of that relationship you are in now. I know you can never say love you back to me. But your acceptance means a lot to me. You can not revert back but I can make sure you feel the purity of my feelings. You stood by me to test every aspect of me to see how genuine I am. I appreciate it and I love the way you shook me hard. That is enough for me to be accepted by you". 

It is not possible to get each and everything in your life. God didn't make you mine but he didn't even took you away from me. Now, I understand why people say " Pyaar ke apne rang hote hai, kab kispe kaisa chade". 

For you my colour of love will be pink,  the colour which suits in every occasion, the shades of pink will define your mood swings which you elaborate in front of your mirror. I definitely can't be next to you but I am always there present for you when you need me. Although your presence is not physical near me but I feel your soul around me. 

I am happy for your happiness, and will try to bring a smile on your face in every time you cry deep down. 


HAPPY HOLI TO ALL MY READERS. STAY SAFE AND PLAY HARD. 

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Saurav Devashish said…
Wow mam nice story
February 10, 2023 at 9:21 AM
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